Endometriosis.

That is what my doctor discoved on Wednesday. Not the worst but I'm still not thrilled. The thought of being infertile terrifies me. I'm only 20. Jacob and I aren't ready for a family, but the Dr says the sooner we try the better off we will be. Ugh. Hysterectomy is a way to fix it, really. I'd rather have pain & try my damndest to have a family then go that route. Anyone know anything about this? I go for a follow up in 2 weeks and will know what stage and all that then. I am thanking God it wasn't a tumor, which was what he was expecting.

Also am I not pretty young to have this? I dont know a lot about it really. I can read and read what it says online but a lot of it contradicts itself..

On a funny note, when I first woke up in recovery I tried to bull the breathing tube out, I panicked I guess. Then I kept taking the oxygen mask off. I was in a rare form. I remember that, then I remember being put in a room and my family coming in & the nurse I had was a complete BITCH! Oh well I am home & friends and family are taking very good care of me. :) I know yesterday I was not easy to deal with! haha. Today was a little better but not much.

When I told Jacob about being advising trying to conceive sooner rather than later he wasn't thrilled. We had planned on waiting at least another 4-5 years to try, so I dont know what we will do. I definately want children and am terrified if I take fertility drugs I'll end up with multiples, and lose what little bit of sane I have left. haha. We shall see..

I'd give anything to have him here to comfort me. This really broke my heart being told I probably won't be able to have children. I will know more in 2 weeks though so I'm trying to stay positive. It really aggravates me that so many people who can have kids give them up or treat them like shit or have abortions and people like me who want nothing more than to be a mother can't or have to struggle. Agh. :(