How do you do it?

I am going to get a sign to wear daily that says I don't know how I do it..

If I get asked one more time 'how do you do it?' I might scream. I honestly have no clue how I do it. Usually I'm a smartass and say drugs and alcohol, so no true. I just feel like I'm going through the motions day in and day out and thats it. I do it because I have to do it. I know there is an end to this madness. What am I supposed to do hide under the bed until it's all over? I don't think so. I may let it get me down & miserable but I will not hide from it or give up. This is my life, it isn't ideal or perfect at the moment but it's our reality. It's any military wives reality. I get through it because I know tons of women do the same thing every day. I know I am not the only one missing my husband/best friend/hero. I dont have a clue how I do it some days, most days are just big blurs. I'm not some superhero fighting the bad guys. I am a wife this is my duty. I wait. If that's a super power then thats what mine is. I might not always be patient about it but I do it. I do it for my husband and I can't imagine a life without him.



I just noticed in 3 days it was exactly a year ago that Jacob proposed. :) and on November 29th we have been married a year. Short engagement but after 3.5 years together and the military we just went ahead with it. I was so shocked when he proposed. I assumed it was coming but that was not when I expected it. Oh it makes me smile. :) That story will be another post.