On the up side..

So since I've started this I've been really negative, not on purpose just needed to get it all out. So onto some positive things..

• In a week, we are 4 months down with this deployment. Hallelujah. It feels like it's been forever. Last night I had a dream that he surprised me and I damn near lost it. haha. I absolutely can't wait to see him again.
• I keep saying that I'm going to get in better shape while he's gone, I haven't even started. But I somehow managed to lose like 7 lbs which is a start. Now I just need to get my ass in gear.. one day.
• I now have a newfound respect for 'girl time'. I love it. I just can't imagine giving it up and moving back to base. Don't get me wrong I can't wait to but my friends have been there. At least some of them. They don't understand and sometimes that frustrates me but almost always one is by my side. They have been there for me to cry and yell and laugh and I will never be able to thank them enough. They have no idea how much someone around takes the edge off things.
• I am fortunate to have a job I know times are hard right now and jobs are hard to come by. I can't help but think if they knew Jacob was deployed and that I won't be there for long that they wouldn't have hired me. Who knows though.

More about these friends. I can't imagine going through this without them. None of them have a clue but they try, some don't, but they try to understand and be there. I know girls that whine about their loves being gone a week or less and I want to shoot them. Really? Do they think I have sympathy? I don't. That may be me being a negative bitch again but I don't. Three days without a guy WILL NOT, I REPEAT WILL NOT HURT YOU! It's amazing to me. The friends I just knew would be there and support me haven't even once asked how things are or anything. And the people I expected to drift away from have stepped up big time. Shows how much I know. But thank you big time to all the girls that are there. For me to cry to, yell, cuss, scream, laugh, goof off, text randomly at 3 AM, force to eat ice cream, and hold me together when I'm not sure I can take it another day.

Random addition outburst, could get feisty. Why do people here like to tell me they know how I feel? This isn't a military town or even close. No one I know here is married to the military. NEWS FLASH, you don't have a clue what I feel on a day to day basis. There is no way. A lot of them wouldn't make it if they felt what I did daily. It makes me so mad. They think that because one night two years ago when so&so stayed at his buddies they can relate.. uh no. I can't touch my husband, I can't call him, I can see him, I can't smell him and cuddle up to him. You most certainly do not know how I feel. I could bitch slap people whining about a few days. I'd give my left foot for just that much time apart. Actually I'd give anything for that. Okay. Enough with this bitchiness ruining my positive post. haha.