Why is it the person that holds you together is the person that makes you the maddest? I wonder this everytime we argue. He makes me so mad I think my eyes could pop out and my head explode but I absolutely love him with all my heart and can't imagine life without him. Sometimes I think we need to work on bitching at each other but then I realize it wouldn't be real if we didn't disagree. I agree to disagree. Then I also take the time to consider he's far away and neither of us understands really what they other is going through, luckily he's not in Iraq or Afghanistan, but he is still gone. Why does it sound like I'm a negative bitter person and I'm mean to my husband? I'm not. Yes sometimes I do bite his head off for things he can't control and I sometimes say all the wrong things but he does too. That's right he's not perfect either. Somedays we're so nice to each other and other days it's on. It blows my mind. Our main problem is we're both always right, what a coincidence. ha. Not to mention stubborn so this can lead to some interesting times.
Our current battle is living arrangements. I want our own place regardless of what it is at this point. I am desperate to be out of here. He wants to save up and pay off his truck and have a savings account built up for the future. I realize his points, I do. I would love for us to be rid of that truck payment, and we still can be all while saving my sanity. No the bank account won't be as big but I will be so much happier and I will drop it. He told me the other day that he had it worse than me and I needed to suck it up. Yeah right. Has he met my family? Has he forgotten what they can be like? I know he does have it worse living condition wise but he signed up for it. I did not. I wouldn't make it in the military and I know that. I support him 110%. We will figure it out.. Hopefully before I lose it.
Don't get me wrong. I love Jacob with all my heart. I can't wait to have him back home and with me. I've joked I don't know if I want to hug him or slap him when I see him again. But I know it will be me tackling him full force. And I can't wait for that.
Our current battle is living arrangements. I want our own place regardless of what it is at this point. I am desperate to be out of here. He wants to save up and pay off his truck and have a savings account built up for the future. I realize his points, I do. I would love for us to be rid of that truck payment, and we still can be all while saving my sanity. No the bank account won't be as big but I will be so much happier and I will drop it. He told me the other day that he had it worse than me and I needed to suck it up. Yeah right. Has he met my family? Has he forgotten what they can be like? I know he does have it worse living condition wise but he signed up for it. I did not. I wouldn't make it in the military and I know that. I support him 110%. We will figure it out.. Hopefully before I lose it.
Don't get me wrong. I love Jacob with all my heart. I can't wait to have him back home and with me. I've joked I don't know if I want to hug him or slap him when I see him again. But I know it will be me tackling him full force. And I can't wait for that.
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